I think we sometimes want to rush through the hard seasons in life. Yesterday my best friend and I were talking about how we both felt distant from God. We are out of our heartbreak season, but for some reason we miss that season. We didn't miss the pain we went through, but we missed how closely we felt to God. We missed how much we leaned on him, and we missed how many revelations we had.
The Holy Spirit reminded me that God is close to the brokenhearted, so when we were in those seasons it was almost if He were holding our hands 24/7.
I think we needed him in a special way during that heartbreak. Not to say we dont need him now, but I think Jesus has a tender heart for those in pain.
When I was a child and I was sick my mom would give me extra attention. She would let me stay home from work, she would cook me my favorite food, she would let me lay on the couch and watch movies all day, and she would cater to me. Sure she would baby me, but it was because I needed it. I was hurting from the inside out. I wasnt okay. I was trying to fight through the infection that had so literally taken over my life.
I think that is how God is with the brokenhearted.
He babies them a little more, shows them a little more attention, and He consistently let's them know He is there for them while they are fighting through the infection.
Now I'm in a season where I feel like I am waiting for God's blessings. I know they are coming, but it is extremely hard to wait especially when I feel like I cant always hear God's voice.
My heart is healed. The trauma is less. The hard memories feel distant. My chest feels lighter. I am ready to be successful and focus on my career. I am dying for the flood gates to open.
I feel like the waiting is making me crazy.
But an interview that Shelley Giglio had with Maya Moore reminded me that you cant wish for success too fast because it could crush you. It reminded me that the people who become successful are the ones that love the hard process. These are the people that throw themselves into the parts where no one is watching except for God. The people that dont run away from the hardness are the ones you see being admired.
This isnt your average "sermon", but two women coming together to talk about success and Jesus. There is so much truth in what they have to say. Allow yourself to listen, and to receive.